I suppose its all over for me.
My attempt at trying to make money from online poker has always been a rocky one. Time and time again I tilted and had to lower the stakes due to reduced bankroll. However I have reached the absolute lowest point of my poker venture and just looking at this makes me depressed at just how much profit I have blown away. This was money that actually mattered.
I destroyed 4NL from the get go. Took quite some time but eventually crushed 10NL, there was nothing particularly difficult about 10NL but some of my insane tilting sessions meant that my winrate was far from ideal. Anyways 20NL was surprisingly easy and only required a little change of play against the good lag players which are almost non existent on the lower levels. The level of fish at 20NL was possibly worse than even 4NL.
Now I was all set for 50NL and this is what has turned out to be an utter disaster. I admit to getting owned by the lag players at 50NL, they often made me lose my cool with their persistent betting. However it really wouldn't have been this bad had it not been for those tilting sessions. No I didn't blow away a grand in tilt but a lot of it is attributed to it.
I still have around 250 profit left which is good enough for me to play 20NL but I am really disheartened at myself. Going back to 20NL after having a bankroll of over 1200 at one point is just going to feel so sad. So I am thinking of just cashing out something while I can. And really 20NL is never going to give a satisfactory hourly rate for me since I just cannot play more than 4 tables.
I still feel very confident about my live game but maybe online multitabling isn't for me. I suppose I should give MTT's a shot.
I know I am running way below EV but that's really not an excuse. I was once running way above it and I know that I haven't experienced an unusually bad run or something as EV doesn't really tell the whole story.
I would just give one advise to everyone if you think I am worthy of giving one lol. Never make river bluffs in online poker upto 50NL as its never ever going to be worth it.
If I had the money I would still dearly love to play 50NL as I haven't given up on battling the regs there its just that I don't have the bankroll anymore and don't currently have personal money to afford those stakes. So maybe I'll be back one day.