Almost 20 BIs below EV?

I've been running like bad luck brian for the last 30k hands, almost 20 BIs below my expected value. This is really starting to get to me, ridiculous stuff is happening almost every session. Sets that get outdrawn on the river when I'm already pot committed etc.
Here's an example from this session, where I ran -0.5 BIs instead of +4BI
poker stars, $0.02/$0.05 No Limit Hold'em Cash, 9 Players
Poker Tools Powered By Holdem Manager - The Ultimate Poker Software Suite.

BTN: $5.09 (101.8 bb)
SB: $1.99 (39.8 bb)
Hero (BB): $5 (100 bb)
UTG+1: $5.04 (100.8 bb)
UTG+2: $18.22 (364.4 bb)
MP1: $2.80 (56 bb)
MP2: $11.58 (231.6 bb)
MP3: $5 (100 bb)
CO: $5 (100 bb)

Preflop: Hero is BB with 9 8
6 folds, BTN raises to $0.20, SB folds, Hero raises to $0.60, BTN calls $0.40

Flop: ($1.22) A 2 Q (2 players)
Hero bets $0.85, BTN raises to $4.49 and is all-in, Hero calls $3.55 and is all-in

Turn: ($10.02) A (2 players, 2 are all-in)
River: ($10.02) J (2 players, 2 are all-in)

Results: $10.02 pot ($0.42 rake)
Final Board: A 2 Q A J
BTN showed A Q and won $9.60 ($4.60 net)
Hero showed 9 8 and lost (-$5 net)

and here's my graph the last 50k hands:
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How do you guys deal with this? I've been playing and playing for weeks now, yet still I get outdrawn almost every time I have close to the nuts on the flop.

Just feels so pointless to play for days, when I know I am a winning player, and still can't manage to win a single damn pot.

one time i ran so many buy ins under EV that i had to consult a mathematician to figure out what number to use to express it

Just remind yourself of the fact you've played the best poker you could and that this won't happen forever. Just last month my EV was about £45 and my actual winnings were about £12 playing at £2NL. That's almost a 22BI difference.

This month I'm above EV and have sucked out with AK vs KK and KK vs AA. Karma I guess?

Just keep playing and continue to get your money in good. Volume beats variance!