Just another story about beeing on tilt
It all started (as usual ) after a long series of cold cards . You try to tighten up , but every hand you play even if its AA,KK , QQ etc. everything gets beaten, nothing holds up . You start thinking if Poker is a game of pure luck or maybe its just a game u suck at .
You forget about all those victories you had and that you ve build up a pretty big bankroll with the same game you are playing right now ( wich means you cant do that bad at it since you are a winning hold em player in the longer run ... )
Suddenly you play longer sessions than usual just because u cant believe everything can go that wrong . Well , i lost about 100$ in a few hours playing 1/2 $ limit and after i failed there , i bought into some bigger journeys ( 20 $ ) just to get the money back quick , then my genius mind thought - ok im not good at ring games limit , im not good at tourneys - i have to play NL holdem ( another tilt idea ) - well after all my bankroll took a hit of over 200 $ in a very short time ( 5 hours maybe ) . And as usual , i didnt notice i was on tilt - i kept doing crazy things like playing bigger tourneys etc. but i had this " you cant win at this game "- feeling every time i sat down at a table ( wich i think is the biggest problem - i didnt believe in my/the game no more ) .
If i only was honest to myself i would have had to say to myself "Now is no good time to play for you - let poker be poker , do something else , just leave it as it is " - but as we all know its a very hard thing to do if you are that emotional involved .
2 days later i got my mind back , started to build up my bankroll again and now after another two days playing well ( as well as a Poo can do ) i got the 200 $ back , it was much work to get the money back but it was so easy to burn it before ( i really have to remember that !!! ) .
Well - thats the end of another Tilt story ( i think its good for me to wite it down tough )
Ps.: I dont care if noone cares about all this !