If you want to build some sort of bond, i wouldn't suggest paying for coaching. Most don't really care and will never help you outside of what you are paying them for.
You could try some sort of pay as you go, or profit share coaching. That way the coach has invested interests in you performing well, but the downside obviously is that it's long term, usually volume orientated and you have to fork out a lot of your winnings.
In regards to the fear of making incorrect decisions. Look into getting some sort of review system working. Like, if you use HEM or PT you can "mark" hands for future review. That way, you can just make the move you think is correct but still unsure about, then review it after you play, instead of worrying about it in the game.
Experiment with what works for you, but when i played STT's a while back, i would always review the hands/games i played from the day before. That way i was in a good minset for poker when i loaded games for that day, kind of kickstarting my brain.
Anyways, best of luck.
You might want to PM Pascal or duggs. pretty sure they would be happy to add you to skype and talk about hands. I know pascal enjoys babbling on skype quite a bit . (usually me babbling :/ )